Hello from Pittsburgh
Id like to start by saying I stumbled across this site 2 or 3 days ago and finally decided to become a member. I have found this site to be most interesting and full of genuine, heartwarming people. Maybe I should explain a little about myself and why I just so happened to end up here.
I was born into a christian family. Not to direct any offense or to discount what may or may not be true, but the beliefs never held true to me. Being told that all my triumphs were a direct result of his guidance and my failures were do to my error seemed like fodder. Truly these triumphs and failures were a result of my own resolve and not due to a higher being? I recall being told by my mother that I was fascinated by the universe since a young age and my ambition was to be an astronaut. Because of this I denounced religion from my life, unwittingly denouncing spirituality from my life as well, which I have now come to believe are two very different concepts.
I instead turned to science. It seemed to offer many explanations to the questions that religion could not and I just obsessed over information. To feel knowledgable was a very gratifying experience but I soon found it did not answer all of my questions. I will explain.
When I was six I lived in Kittaning, a rural area north of Pittsburgh. The house we moved to was old and fairly secluded, reportedly to be related to an indian site. I faintly remember odd occurrences in the house, but one occasion I remember vividly. My parents had recently divorced and my father had moved back to Pittsburgh. I was visiting my mother and she had fallen asleep during a movie. I went to go upstairs for use of the bathroom and halfway up I got a severe chill. I felt like i was being watched by someone, something. I felt immobilized and I remember seeing a shadow approach me. when the shadow touched mine I regained control of myself and was full of unusual sensations. I do not recall any further experiences in that house and my mother soon moved back to Pittsburgh as well.
Fast forward about 4 years. I developed epilepsy and the ironic twist is I was fully conscious of the entire event. I have done my research and during episodes like mine the person is rendered immobile(which I was) and unconscious(which I was not). I had a total of 4 seizures in a month span and then they subsided. I was medicated for 3 years and have never experienced a relapse.
This is where things get tricky. Since my seizures, I have a foggy recollection of my childhood at best, and at times experience what I could only describe as a sixth sense. Often times,(but not at will) I could almost guess what a person was going to say, or feel something coming, and have ever since had what seems like an above average amount of deja vu. As a side note, my username is ionic because I have come to the conclusion that I am oddly charged? Technology just doesn't seem to work at times and I haven't the slightest clue how to explain it. My friends have even jokingly referred to me as the antichrist of technology. Fitting, though I believe the right technology can be very beneficial.
I've joined this community to search for answers to my questions and to seek solutions from and with likeminded individuals who want nothing but to spread love and peace to the life on earth. I hope to expand myself a little more day by day.
Great to meet all of you, and I wish you all the best.
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